Living Large

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I’m A Dork Haha

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Educated Yourselves!

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Walk on the Ocean

thecaffeinatedword — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 04:57:58 +0000

We spotted the ocean at the head of the trail
Where are we going, so far away
And somebody told me that this is the place
Where everythings better, everythings safe

Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone

And half and hour later we packed up our things
We said we’d send letters and all those little things
And they knew we were lying, but they smiled just the same
It seemed they’d already forgotten we’d came

Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone

Now were back at the homestead
Where the air makes you choke
And people dont know you
And trust is a joke
We dont even have pictures
Just memories to hold
That grow sweeter each season
As we slowly grow old

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I just found this song on my Ipod while it was playing on random. It reminded me of those places I’ve found, or those places I can always go to that are just perfect. Your entire life disolves away, and you get caught up in how perfect that place is, and how everything seems better at that moment you’re there. Everything seems safe. These are a few of them. Although the photos do these spots no justice. You just have to go to see how amazing each one actually is.

White Pine Jeep Trail

Perfect Fall Day up Kebler Pass

My childhood hang out spot/favorite place ever.

Get Set… GO!

thecaffeinatedword — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 04:01:28 +0000

Oh where to begin… I was just reading through a few of my journals from the months past and realized a few things. 1) A lot of my entries allll sound the same, I either have the same things on my mind constantly or it could be my writing style? I guess most of these entries are more me writing in a train of thought mind set, and are not meant to be college essay style works of art so it makes sense that my mind jots down it’s thoughts in a similar fashion every time. And 2) We are already half done with this year?! This year is going way to fast for my liking. The beginning of the year, all my entries are so depressed.I feel like I wasted those months away trying to recover from a certain event that brought me to that depressed state. Then somewhere in the Feb – March range I got into WFG. I think mainly because it was something that I could do that would take my mind off of the depression. They made me feel good about myself. Made me feel important, after a month or two of feeling like an absolute loser. I stuck with it until the county job started up again and I realized that Financial services were not my cup of tea. In fact the suit and tie, office job, selling products was not AT ALL my cup of tea. I need to be out doors. I need fresh air and to be able to explore and meet people as friends, not as potential clients. I realized that I’m happiest when I’m out in nature. I cringe at the thought of ever working indoors. I realize that I LOVE my job, and if I ever do want to go back to school it will be for something that will land me a similar job to the one I have now. Maybe not Historical preservation, but something more along the lines of wilderness conservation or wildlife biology studies. Either way I’ll still be outdoors and happy!

Going back to school however is a big decision in my life though. My grades from previous trials arn’t the best and transferring schools might be difficult. If I did go back I would be going back for Wildlife Biology, or something along those lines, which is a degree that CU doesn’t offer, meaning i’d have to for sure transfer one more time. The closest school to offer wildlife bio is CSU in fort collins. Which would be cool and not cool at the same time, cool that i’d be living at home again in fort collins (not necessarily at my parents place) , but not so cool in that I’d feel like I was going backwards. Coming back to foco when I could be off living somewhere else and seeing a whole other part of the world! Another thing that worries me is that a degree in wildlife bio would be extremely interesting, but it’s a known fact that I will not make much money w/ any job that I get in result of that degree. And spending insain amounts of money to get a degree i’m not going to make that much with is crazy! I feel like what interests me I can get w/ out a degree. But at the same time I feel like certain people expect me to finish college. And look down upon me if I don’t. My new boss Judy w/ the Youth Corps is one of those. She’s talked to me multiple times saying I should finish school. I should go back ASAP. I don’t know why she’s made it her business to be concerned about my education but It puts a pressure on me to go back. C also gives me this vibe. I feel like the whole reason she did what she did back in january is because she felt like I wasn’t going anywhere. She didn’t want to be w/ a loser who was stuck in a rut. Who didn’t know where he was going. So she went elsewhere to someone who was a complete woman degrading asshole, but also who did have their shit together, who was an engineer who appears to be going somewhere, and is working towards something. Personally I feel like I can get just as far if not further along w/ out college than I can w/ college. I just feel like i’m a disappointment to people until I do become successful in something, and that’s hard to deal with. Idk. I’m going to pay for an extension on my online class that I started last year. I’m going to get it done then and out of the way asap, so I can have that boost in GPA that will allow me to transfer if I so choose that path eventually.

Yesterday was my first day starting with BC Youth Corps! I’m so excited! The trainings so far have been a blast. I’ve met SOO many new people my own age who are absolutely awesome, and love the things I love, have tons of similar interests, and who are just as stoked about this summer as I am! I’ve been waiting for SOOO long to find a group like this I’m making tons of new friends, learning tons of cool things, and feel like i’m making a difference by helping kids help the community and have the coolest job they could possibly have! This is going to be a great next couple of months!

Ontop of the Youth Corps, C and I are getting along fantastically! We always have a blast when we are together, vs 8 months ago where we were constantly bickering/fighting/not having a good time. I love where things are headed and how things have been. Again this is going to be a great summer. Right now is like a complete 180 turn around from the beginning of this year in every aspect of my life! I can’t wait to see what the next few months bring!

I know I have more to write about, but I’m getting tired of writing, and i’m sure I wont want to read this HUGE long thing again anytime soon so, until next time, adieu!

Interesting!

thecaffeinatedword — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 06:05:21 +0000

My terrarium rocks! I thought all the animal life had died off or was dying off. But with the addition of a little piece of banana to lure everything out, I find that not only is stuff still alive… it’s thriving and abundant!!! Hundreds of ants, a few rolly pollies, millipedes, and some weird black bug all came out to feast. I need to throw a few crickets in there and eventually a snake! I want stuff to start thriving even more before I introduce a snake though. I need to set up a heat area for it too, which I currently do not have.

also i wish I did not plant grass in there… it’s starting to take over already… eep.

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Terrariffic!

thecaffeinatedword — Mon, 18 May 2009 22:52:39 +0000

Working outdoors all the time out in the mountains and at parks all over boulder county i’ve become extremely interested in wildlife and habitats of various plants and animals. I might even consider going back to school for a degree in wildlife biology. I took off time from school to find out what I’m interested in and what I would like to do for the rest of my life. I couldn’t stand the idea of going for some pointless degree I didn’t like and would never use just because I had to pick SOMETHING after 4 years. Wildlife biology seems very interesting and like something that could land me a job doing wild life conservation work or something along those lines. Which would be sooo cool!

I set up a terrarium a few weeks ago complete with baby bull snake. It took awhile to start seeing plants growing (i planted seeds) and the snake wasn’t very happy. He seemed to get more and more pissed at me as time went on, trying to bite me every chance he got. Eventually he discovered a way to escape and escaped twice. I caught him once and the second time my mom found him coiled up at the top of our stairs ready to bite! Needless to say, I had to get ride of Mr. Bull Snake. But today I re-arranged the terrarium so it’s cooler looking than ever! I still have little burrows (because I plan on getting another, friendlier snake) but I’ve planted 5 oak tree saplings, thyme, some sort of moss, and a bunch of grass that should be taking off fairly soon. Also there is any number of centipedes, rolly pollies, and earth worms living within the soil and under rocks w/ burrows I have also provided for said creatures. To my delight I also dug up an ant colony when I was putting soil in the terrarium so I have that in there as well! They are doing very well, a little too well however and I may need to put a predator such as a few wolf spiders in there to control the ant population.

Once everything has been set and is thriving and well, I want to get a Rough Green Snake for the terrarium. Unlike the bull snake, green snakes are very friendly and wont bite. They only get to be a maximum of 18 inches (unlike the bull which can get up to 8 feet) and they only eat insects, making it much easier / cheaper to take care of then a bull snake which I would have to feed 2-3 mice on a weekly basis. C and I recently found a Smooth Green Snake on our hike up in the mountains and it was the coolest thing ever! Unfortunately the smooth green snake is an endangered species, and It would be wrong/illegal to capture it. Looking online however I found there is also such thing as a Rough Green Snake, it looks exactly the same as the smooth green, except it’s scales are more ridged and they get a tad longer, by 6 inches or so ( about 24 inches full grown) They are just as friendly and would do great in my terrarium! I’m super stoked to have this thing all set up!!

Here are pics of everything that’s in there now…

The last two critters are ones I need/want to add, but I feel would do very well in the environment. I’ve made the screen top to my tank more snake proof so there will be no escaping anymore (hopefully). I can’t wait to see how this little experiment turns out. So far there is all the makings of an awesome ecosystem! Enough plant and animal material to feed the smaller bugs (ants, rolly pollys, and centipedes) Enough small bugs to feed the spiders. I’ll have to add crickets to feed the snake, but that’s no biggy. The waste from all the animals and dead plant material will feed the micro-organisms in the soil making it rich for the plants to continue growing and the bugs to keep eating and so on! all i need to do is water it and add crickets from time to time and this thing should support itself pretty well i’m super stoked!

I Kick Ass

thecaffeinatedword — Fri, 15 May 2009 04:50:38 +0000

I’m smart. I’m hot. I’m funny. Every girl wants me. I’m easily 50 times better than any guy they’ve ever dated, had a crush on, or hooked up with in every aspect. I’m athletic. I’m tone. I have huge dreams, Huge aspirations, And a Huge Dick. I’m easy going in my everyday life, yet aggressive towards getting what I want out of life. I’m going to do great things, and be more successful than any mother fucker who’s ever doubted me. I’m friendly towards everyone I meet. I’m a joy to be around! Anyone who disses on me, or fucks me over, no biggy… I’m totally cool with that. It’s their loss. I don’t need them in my life, but they need me in theirs, and if they ask very nicely I might let them back in. I can do anything I want. I can get anything I want. I can get anyone I want. I’m Michael Lohr and I’m Unstop able. I simply Kick Ass.

If you disagree w/ any of this, then fuck you. You just can accept that you can’t compete with me. You might as well just sit back and watch me achieve every dream you ever wish you could.

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